Grateful

After this past week and my experience at the hospital I have really had a chance to sort through my emotions and find a true feeling in my heart of gratitude to the Lord. Just realizing that If it weren't for the Lord's goodness to me I might not be here tonight snuggling my little baby, putting Hazel back to sleep for the 10th time, listening to Jacob talk about his inventions, telling Miriam parables, and simply talking with my husband, I am truly grateful. I know the Lord is watching over me, and am so grateful for this. I hope I can live each day to be a better Mother, wife and friend.

The occurrence of getting me to the ER was really a miracle, as I really wasn't in terrible pain, and I was pretty against going to the ER since we are uninsured right now. Jared gave me a blessing Sunday night, and it was different from any blessing I have had previous. He blessed me to be mindful of the needs of my body, and that I would be able to feel what needed to be done. I went to bed Sunday night praying I would know what to do. I woke up at 2 or 3 am and had dreamed that I was about to die. I knew we had to go to the ER even though when we got there and they asked me what my pain was on a scale of 1-10 I said, "1.5" and I remember thinking this is silly, why am I here? In a matter of hours I was diagnosed, and operated on. Each of the Doctors and Nurses kept telling me I was really lucky I had come in when I had, as I had been bleeding internally since Friday or Saturday. So other than the giant bill that is sure to come our way soon, I feel very very blessed to live in a country where I could get the medical help I needed, in a day when it was a matter of a same day surgery, and here I am, almost as good as new :) and most of all I am thankful for a loving Heavenly Father who really did help me know what needed to be done.